Halloween

Well this day is Halloween I am actually since the last time I came here I was so mad. I had so much anger and now I find myself to have taken this anger and simmer it down because it leads to only more complications. Actually last week I went to bed thinking that Monday October 19, 2009' was going to be a better day for me and sure enough it was. I got a call after a jog. It was a great day and a nice walk with so much more confidence. I prayed when the phone rang and thought please God let it be a job. Sure enough my staffing agency called me and asked if I was still looking for work. I let her know I was and she asked me to go in and get info on that specific job. I went and did a test which I did well. She scheduled an appointment and I headed there as soon as I was done with my test. They allowed me to see what the work was and what they have to do everyday. I find it complicated but I think its like that everywhere. She asked if I would like to try it for two week and if all goes well they will keep me. I like it but like I said its very complicated and so many customers call in and complain at times. I actually portray myself to be like them in their kind of situation. They seem to as well want to think I get mad with them but I don't maybe because now and days I just feel numb. I don't get nervous anymore like I use to. Life..... I see it now as just a day by day basis. I don't allow myself to feel nervous. I only feel things when I can't handle the situation or when I didn't do the job as well as I should have. But its not nerves its more like disappointment. Its the end soon of my trial this coming Monday and I will find out on Monday if they will keep me on as their employee. I think there were so many questions I am not sure where they stand right now. Its Halloween now and I am gonna relax for the time being and just have some fun with my kiddos and take them out trick or treating. If anyone even ever reads my blogs well hope you have a safe weekend and Happy safe Halloween night!
"A"