Halloween

Well this day is Halloween I am actually since the last time I came here I was so mad. I had so much anger and now I find myself to have taken this anger and simmer it down because it leads to only more complications. Actually last week I went to bed thinking that Monday October 19, 2009' was going to be a better day for me and sure enough it was. I got a call after a jog. It was a great day and a nice walk with so much more confidence. I prayed when the phone rang and thought please God let it be a job. Sure enough my staffing agency called me and asked if I was still looking for work. I let her know I was and she asked me to go in and get info on that specific job. I went and did a test which I did well. She scheduled an appointment and I headed there as soon as I was done with my test. They allowed me to see what the work was and what they have to do everyday. I find it complicated but I think its like that everywhere. She asked if I would like to try it for two week and if all goes well they will keep me. I like it but like I said its very complicated and so many customers call in and complain at times. I actually portray myself to be like them in their kind of situation. They seem to as well want to think I get mad with them but I don't maybe because now and days I just feel numb. I don't get nervous anymore like I use to. Life..... I see it now as just a day by day basis. I don't allow myself to feel nervous. I only feel things when I can't handle the situation or when I didn't do the job as well as I should have. But its not nerves its more like disappointment. Its the end soon of my trial this coming Monday and I will find out on Monday if they will keep me on as their employee. I think there were so many questions I am not sure where they stand right now. Its Halloween now and I am gonna relax for the time being and just have some fun with my kiddos and take them out trick or treating. If anyone even ever reads my blogs well hope you have a safe weekend and Happy safe Halloween night!
"A"

Finding life again

Recently I have decided I need to help myself. You know I have three kids and the baby melts my heart. My other ones probably notice it but I think are greatful because she changes my feelings on what I am going to do next. She has prevented me from leaving. I find myself looking at her so much because I see myself in her. A Lot! I capture a lot of what she does and how she acts. The way she moves, laughs, crys, jokes, and her being her lilself. She is so happy I want to be where she is at. We rode our bikes this past weekend and I had a great time with my kids and not being on the phone in such a long time. It was the most ive done with my body in a long time. We bicycled for 5 hours straight! My ass hurt and my nani too. But you know what I was finally out there doing the things that I love best. Hanging out with my kids. Laughing so hard. I can't really remember when was the last time I did this. This weekend motivated me to get to my shit together and go along with society. I am missing out on life sitting here crying for myself. I know a certain person I love very much and always will I had to avoid along the way recently and I am sorry to leave that behind. But I need to move forward to help myself and not let my kids see me in such depressed pain anymore. They are to good to me for me to do that to them. Everytime I cry they come and comfort me. They hug me with their lil arms. I think wow it doesn't matter that I was gone for a year they understand mom needed to get herself together and in that process she fell back and now they know I need them. They talk to me with so much understanding. I realize I did well raising them right. I have never known three kids from same parent that believe that mom is trying and everything else does not matter only that Im here now and I will be fine. Not sure if you understand what I mean but they are the most amazing kids I know. Yeah they have their flaws but don't we all. Im one to say for sure I have flaws especially having to have been gone out of their lives for a year and everyone here nows my past situation and I had to. Now I feel more strong because Im not in that situation any more. I needed that one year. I did what I was set out to do. I lost myself in the end but I am working my way back with my kids who are helping me and showing me the route back. I remember when I was young I disliked my mom so much I used a knife to my bed and spelled out my mom is a B.... I regret that BTW,. But my kids dont have the same feeling I had for my mother. I sleep in my lil babys bunk and I was surprised to I see MOM spelled in pencil with a star in front of the word MOM. Including Jorgys and Mark Jr. names were written there. I believe my children are gods lil angels he sent them to me to help me conquer what I have been going through. He knew I needed three like me to see me through my way back to life again. I know he knows our future and he saw my future and gave me what he knew was going to save me. I LOVE MY KIDS! Thanks for being sweet with an open heart and understanding children. ;)Love MOM!

Inhale exhale

He loves me he loves me not
Confusion I can not stand
Alone is what I know
Hurt is what I am
Pain is what runs through my veins
Tears is what runs down my cheeks
Fustrasion is what I feel
Life is what I wait to end
I live for my children
Im here to live this life
Can I walk and continue to be
at what cost should that be
Believe is what takes me far
Strength is what gets me strong
My feet is what I stand my ground
My head is what I lift up high
I am here to conquer what I suffer daily.
Bring it cuz I am not fading!
MizzMexiQueen~

Scared of my Future

Do you know when you hear some sad news and you wish you didn't want to hear it. It might not be anything which is what I am praying. But when a professional confirms they feel what u feel then its like a eye opener and pray you don't want to go through any of it. I rather live my life and not know anything else just live it to the fullest and get the best of it. How ever long I have in this life then I just want to live it with me being me and not knowing anything else. I know its not fare for the people in my life but everyone is different in their own way. Mine is this way....... My kids would I think understand when they get older. Because who can live with so much pain of radiation kimo. I have heard many story's I don't want to suffer. I know many woman have fought it and won the battle. I'm just I guess worried I don't have the energy for it. I just hope that what the doctor felt and what I feel every night on my chest is nothing. I will schedule a mammogram appointment tomorrow. Hope to be seen soon. I'm tired of thinking of this. I just want to know. I guess so I know what to do and be ready to except and prepare for the results...... And whatever I decide to do I hope the beautiful people in my life can except my decision.

~My Sons Birthday today~

Today is the birthday of my lil boy. Eleven years ago I gave birth to the only son I have. He means so much to me. The shitty thing I was unable to be with him to celebrate this moment of memory. Happy Birthday lil one your growing up so much and becoming a young man. Imagine in 2 yrs from now you will be facing puberty and teen age boy. You have brought joy to my life even before your existence of my life. I prayed to God to send me you. The day that had I learned of you, my heart skipped a beat, smiled repeatedly, I knew your were my son for the things I craved which you were with in lol. I asked my doctor was it normal to have such cravings surprisingly. You might be asking yourself what that was.... BEER alcohol I know I couldn't believe lol And so my doctor said it was safe to have one was okay. I drank that one and it helped, that was enough for you and me lol. My craving went away but boy did I vomit every freakon day. You sucked me dry I looked like a skeleton walking by. I remember the moments you moved around you kicked and made your feet print looked and felt so cool pressing by. Lol You looked like the movie Aliens trying to excape out of my belly lol. I love you mijo you are my one and only son of mine. Don't you forget it with out you I couldn't move on my life with out you. Your sister I know they understand because they are special in their own way in this heart of mine. Just like you, you are unique. Wouldn't change you, your mine to keep. Happy Birthday my sweet joy boy of mine~Love you always~
MizzMexiQueen~

Thanksgiving the story of my stormy Thankgiving Holiday!

Thanksgiving a day of what is grace, giving thanks to everything, and everyone we are thankful for. My holiday vacation started off good before the time came though I did not think I would feel what I felt. I haven't cried in such a long while, but as the last day of my time at work I found myself longing to see my kids. As the time went shorter ready to leave I desperately awaiting for the time to come three. I set out to leave right out of work and go home pack a small suitcase and head out the door. I set forth to drive the miles for the smiles on their faces I would see on Thanksgiving day the hugs and kisses from my lil blisses. But reality sinked in and I knew it wasn't the time to head out as I already find myself at a bind. It hurt and I ached for that moment of time. But I tucked myself to sleep at the end of that day waking up to a call of my lil look alikes :). Goodmorning mom Happy Thanksgiving Day! We love you so much and so very dearly. That brought joy to my heart but I still longed for their actual hugs and baby kisses. As the day went on we kept in contact of what was a nice Thankgiving day. Spend the special day with my youngest siblins and my very special joy in my heart my eldest daughter I treasure her heart. I taught them my tradition of prayer that I hold dearly every year. The only difference is they werent here. As I prayed to God for our blessed food I caught myself holding back that gulp of tears. They noticed and I saw their expessions I knew I had to stay stronger that moment there after. I did not want them to see me in tears. But through out our dinner my thoughts and prayers were with the two I would love to have seen. Aside from this moment of emptyness I could not believe my parents couldn't even dial for me. I live in the same town as they live and not one word from either one. I couldn't fathem how could they be........ But as life there will always be something taking me down and as I set forth with my quote I live on. What trys to take me down only makes me stonger and free!

MizzMexiQueen~

Life in general, depressed people blah!

Life in general, depressed people blah! Current mood: adored Category: Blogging
I did not get and now I do how life can take you in a whirl of pool. When I arrived I noticed sadness much more depression but my heart was more opened and smiling at constant. Walked around and noticed so many sad faces very serious much like imprisonment that their lives were caught in a warehouse bind. Been there long enough and see how one can get lost and be how I noticed it from someone outside looking within. I finally get what the blank faces I had seen. I though unlike them keep my head high and walk still with that smile I first walked in with. I notice them reacting to me looking like they wish they were feeling full of life like me. I hear it all the time and they tell me why am I so happy even after all I've been through why do I still smile what am I so happy about. I tell them life's to short to make it all about issue and problems and all I know is that I live life to the fullest because Ill only live once and they should too! I also think at the same time.... I just hope and pray I don't end up like them with so much long faces they look like crying tears in a jar waiting for something to happen for them to move .. the jar I start to think let the frustration escape and get it over and done with. Yell it, scream it, say it, and get over it. Start over and remember there's life at the end of the tunnel all you got to do is let yourself go. Once you get there don't look back only because I know how all that feels. I washed my past behind and look forward to what the future holds for me. I'm just glad I'm very cheerful and can make my friends laugh and put a smile on their faces. The others whom wish to stay in the zombie zone oh well you can't save them all.





MizzMexiQueen~

"Better in time" hits home.....

Twelve yrs we been through so much. Thought I couldn't live wit out u. Alot of things always remind me....Time is healing me. I know Im gonna be okay! Ill be fine without you. Even though I still really love you...I gonna smile cuz I deserve to. No more you and me. Its time for me to let you go for me to be free.. Gonna live my life how I should be. No matter how hard it is Ill be fine without u.. Im gonna smile because I deserve to... Enough said the song explains my strength of how I am moving on today. Moving forward and strong. I am smiling more now because I sure deserve to. ;)
~Stormy AKA Ms.Mexiqueen~

Alone with a broken heart

This is how I feel. I have the pain dat has lasted most of my life and wonder when it will ever end. Growing up with a father dat beat up my mom, a mother that never grew up, a husband dat abused me and I was stupid to stay put. Now Im free but still in pain life has yet of breaking free from me. My heart is chattered in pieces of so much missing my lil babys. I go to sleep with pain I wake up with pain. I put up a front of dat I am ok. But no one knows dat I walk in life with so much pain. A broken heart its so plain. Hundreds of miles away I hear their voices so close it drives me insane. I cry of saddness I hold it in. Dont want them to hear my heart ache in pain. I speak like nothings wrong theses dayz. But a whole lot of hurt is all curled up in my veins. I actually feel like the quote I stumbled upon today "I wish I was a child again because bruised knees heal faster then a broken hearts pain." Dats exactly what I wish I could only feel. The pain of my bruises always went quickly away. Missing my babys this pain I think will just never seem to ever go away....................



~Stormy AKA Ms.MexiQueen~

My 32 of my life

As a child being born you dont expect of what lifes to come. You open your eyes for the very first time. You see what could be a great life. You breath in and take it in. Over whelmed of whats life to bring. The day you are taken home your hugged, kissed, bathed, and so on. They teach you to eat, to walk, to sit, and hold your head up high. You see and meet new people all around. Confused to all the drama around your little life. They carry you, comfort you, and protect you from harm. As getting older means do more on your own. They teach you to respect and obey the rules. While living with one parent who isn't quite right he has issues of his own in life. A father that loves you all but cant break free from how he is in life of being an abusive man to not only to his wife but his daughters as well. A mother trying so hard to believe that one day life will be better for her kids. A hopeless thought I carried with me. His records get bigger the judge finally sees and sends him of to leave us be. My mother so lost she breaks free. Becomes a woman we don't recgonize. The freedom she sees of being so free. Her way of dealing with it is going out and leaving us behind and as well sleeps most of our lives. In all my life Ive seen her lil moments of bits when she is awake. I leave my home at 16. I can't stand being with in. Suicide I failed to complete. Growing up as a teen life was so painful many things happened I fend for myself. Met an idot when I turn 18. Turned to be he wasnt for me got pregnant and asked for me to abort her and break him free of all the childsupport he was going to have to pay. He made the appointment and I didnt complete I loved what was growing inside of me. So I was pregnant at the age of 18 and had her 2 weeks after I turned 19. She went through the same cycle of when I was given this peace of shit life. But I am not my mother I thought of when I held her close so tight. I spoke to my child and told her things I will hold you protect you and love you forever its just you and me my carinya te quiero. Few months past and we struggled together more pain and suffering but this time I wasn't alone she was my rock that carried me to go on. Aside from us I had great best friends I love them dearly and cherish them. They helped with giving us a bed, food, and a home. But that can only take you so far when your alone with a child on your own. One day I met another idiot I swear. I was in need of having a home. I settled and I know I made a mistake but we were somewhat living in my car at the time. I should have walked away but I couldnt raise my baby in the point I was in. One week after I met him I saw what was a repeat of my young life at home. But I stayed because I thought the same I hoped that one day my life would change and it will get better some day and for my kids. With in these years I gained a son and another daughter I promised them the same. Three babys I love till my death and beyond. They are my everything in my life. My husband whom I eventually married the day after I reget saying I do. He stole 12 years of my life Im ashamed because I knew deep inside he would always be the same. Im now 31 yrs old and in April 2nd 2008 I woke up and escaped from what I knew Id be dead if I had stayed. I finally had the wizdom and strength to get out on my own. Since then I have gotten a job being I havent work for in 11 yrs which was my choice to raise my babys. Now their all gone all three go off to school. I have gotten my first pay check with my name posted on it. I love it, it feels so nice every week that goes by. I have a place of my own it feels good to be in my own home. Come and go as I please I feel so much I have missed. This freedom of being strong and doing it alone with my 3 little babys. Now in 3 days I will turn 32. My birthday candle blowing wish of course would have been if my numbers could be switched lol. Nah Im good. I am in the happiest point of my life I look forward to seeing and learning some more. Happy Birthday to me and for more years of life to come. Thanks everyone who Ive met along my way. Look forward to meeting more each and everyday.
~Stormy AKA Ms.MexiQueen~ @>~>~~~

Pain

Oh man I am feeling so under the weather. For every tear I have dropped I feel so empty and numb. Why does pain hurt so much. I want it to go away............. So many thoughts so many issues. I am so distraught with so much over whelming issues life has gotten by me. I look outside and it doesnt help with the weather being so misrable. Not only are tears running down my cheek nature has joined in with my feelings of pain. I am half ways through the day today but it doesnt seem to get easier. If anything I am trying to wipe my tears off my face and hold my head up high. I just feel like I can't pick myself up right now. I need a shoulder to cry on but unfortunitly I am so alone at the moment I feel so lonely........ A heart ache is the most painful things you could ever receive. Separation from the person you love is the lonelyness you could ever be. And dat at the moment is wat I am feeling....

Happy Fathers Day this includes the Moms who R both Mother & Father Alone.

Again Happy Fathers Day
Found myself telling my friend to Have a Happy Fathers Day and she responded back to what and so I explained. You are a mom alone with three kids on your own. You are doing both hard jobs on your own. We as women carried them in our wombs for nine months, felt them in us swimming, feeling so good, They rolled and played inside us, heard our sounds our heart beats. Nurtured them outside us while infants till now they have grown. Still our job has not ended being we still guide them and lead them to learn how to fend for themselves. And as being issues at home and a woman is forced to carrie herself to adjust doing it on her own. Comes along another spot the man cant get to being. We take over and start to provide for our babies dat we as mothers sang to them rock a by. We work now hard in our jobs to bring home the meals, pay for their cloths on their backs, teach them to be all that they can. Provide them shelter and a roof over their heads. We are the Moms dat have boths jobs till the very end. Even at this their dad still helps I give him dat but now most of its just comes down to me. I am the one who has them with me forever and ever that will always be. They are my lil migits of me I wouldnt go on if it was just me. I am still here because of my kids. So I thank them dearly for saving me. I looked at my friend in the end and she smiled back and replyed with the same Have a Happy Fathers Day. My emotions ran in through me it felt so good such a great feeling. I walk with my head up and think this dam manditory over time is worth having to work. Because in the end I am doing my job for my three very content and happy kids.
One more thing and just like a Father at the end of the day they have to have their beer for such a long day. Well as a mother who works both hard jobs everyday. I think we have earned dat right to relax at the end of the day or the end of the week to let our hair down and not lose ourselves, relax, chillax, kick back, and have our beer too.
Happy Fathers Day! Check this video out now http://www.imeem.com/paddy8788/video/Ye7nxPIy/rodney_atkins_watching_you/
~Stormy AKA Ms.MexiQueen~ My favorite song dat fits for today is from Rodney Atkins "Ive' been watching you."

Friday The 13th Can it get any more crazyer today?

Today was for sure not my day. I found myself so tired but I hung in there. I was as well excited dat my over time would be 4 hours. Oh wat a surprise we got in break time I work tomorrow full day. Another Saturday with out my kids. Misrable and letting them know was more stressful. I saw their faces hang low. Hopefully me taking them to see the Incredible Hulk gets them in a better mood. Aside from that a personal issue totally freaked me out how unfare life can be. Those who know me know my situation of me being in the processes of getting a divorce. So I go to court and find out somethings I feel its unfair. If a person wants to get married set a date you will get it. If a person wants a divorce lol here anyway have to live in the city for 6 months before I can file lol. How fucked up is dat! My god makes me wonder if they knew my issues would they even consider me getting it sooner. Plus its takes 50 dollars to get hitched but to get a divorce it costs $355.00. My freedom costs me 355.00 dollars. I keep thinking the light is at the end of the tunnel and I need to get there lol and this will happen in October. I keep getting knocked the wind out of me. Not sure how much more I can take. But I guess I have no choice but continue to get up and move forward. When this happens I will definitly Celebrate!
Hanging in there still,
~Stormy AKA Ms.MexiQueen~

Life can be Shity

Life can be so shity sometimes because you have so much expectations and it doesnt seem to go the way you expect it to go. I have build this wall around myself and have grown to adjust. I actually am greatful for how I set myself up for any relationships dat may come my way. I have gotten so strong since my leaving my husband dat I have no feelings. I feel a bit and then it vanishes. I feel no more. I have obviously grown so much I learned to control my feeling of how I want them to go. Happiness out beats the saddness. But at the same time I see how sad a certain situation can be. Today work started of slow with my small achiness but after an hour had passed and friends made me laugh so hard again I have over come dat moment. Still beneath that laughter is still that small achiness. But oh well life goes on right?. Sometime I wonder will life give me someone where that person will be there always. Appreciate me and everything any woman would want in a man. Although no one is perfect. Makes me wonder what life has in store for me now. I take it I will have to just keep going on and looking forward to what lyes down the road. For now I am a bit bummed and have to run my issues through my jogging. Being thats the only thing dat makes me feel better and good. So need to get it done before the rain gets here. Its getting dark and dont want to get caught in the rain or maybe I do.
~Stormy AKA Ms.MexiQueen~

Life Major Change

Not sure wat I should feel about myspace but I am I suppose relieved. Took out my past and looking forward to my future. Its a new beginning of my life and am finally me! I had lost myself within me for a long time. And now I have bloomed into myself once again. Its been 12 years and I have missed out on so much life. Its good to be able to get out and do things I havent done in such a long time. I have moved with my children, gotten a job,have a new home of my very own, and have become independant. I have been blessed so much. This is the start of my new Chapter in life! Till then life should continue on and see what it has in store for me.
MizzMexiQueen@}~~}~~~~
Living life now to the fullest

Family Reunite

Wow something so awesome happened to my lil girl yesterday! She met her older sister. How blessed shes from God that it finally happened. Also by the way it happened. God made this happen. In such a way it was meant to be. I called and she picked up the phone. Me not knowing whom she would end up to be. Asking her some questions I was tremblin inside. She replyed in a way I didn't think what was next to come. She said after I mention the name I was asking for. He is my father the words came out so clear and so slow. I shook so much my heart raised in speed. I couldn't believe the words she said to me. I believed them but more I was in shock indeed. At that moment in time life stood and past very slow to me. I replayed back OMG you are my babys older sister. Both of us breathed and gasp to talk about the lil one we share blood from. We talked and talked and asked many questions wanting to know more about the likes and dislikes in life we live for. More brothers and sisters my baby learns more. She is excited when I tell her who is on the phone. I pass the phone to her and they talk and learn so much more. They talk so sweet I realize how much alike they are. Who would have thought that Sunday was the night that my baby would know the all the questions she questioned through out her young life. How many brothers and sisters do I have?, Where do they live?, What are their names?, When can I meet them or can I see them just a small glimps? What a most exciting moment for my lil baby girl! What an exciting moment for her brothers and sisters as well. HAve a great Week Guys! I just want to share the most amazing news.

To all Mothers! Happy Mother's Day!

To all the women that I know whom are mothers have a wonderful beautiful Mothers Day with your lil ones. I'm sure like me you all woke up with lil faces looking even length as your face since they all got right next to your bed when you opened your eyes to wake up on a happy day. You heard them all yell and say Happy Mothers Day mom here this is from me! You get the cards that say what they feel and what they mean from their little bottom of their hearts they express such great thrill of how much importance you mean to them. You start reading from the beginning its clear and it pretty their lil misspelled writing but you know what they meant. You continue to read their beautiful words they worked so hard to try to express. Then you read the part that you then start to feel. A memorable moment they still remember and can't forget. Here is an example of what recently happened my eldest had a field trip. I wouldn't allow her to go on her own so I volunteered to chaperone. Then the day came when it was getting closer seeing that she was talking about how she was going to get in many rides with her friends. I then thought to myself..... She didn't include me in any of those rides with her friends. I finally realized I needed to let her go on her own. I trust her, I know. She wouldn't do anything bad of course. She's nothing like I was, I know what I raised. We got to her destination ready to go. I looked at her looking at her friends she wanted to be with them and having to be with me. I saw how she felt like. I called my husband to tell him "Why am I going, She doesn't need me?" He asked me why and then he replied "Well I'll go and pick you up if that's what you want?" I had a great talk with my little one I saw how she looked her eyes brightened up. I cried half of the day thinking she better be safe. I called on her cell phone and asked her just to come back home to me by the end of the day. I love you so much don't get lost stay close to your teacher and don't get apart. I will be at your school by the time you get there. I love you remember always and forever. I cya later my baby girl have fun at the same time and take good care. This was the day I graduated from letting her go. Today the card that she gave me had a part of her telling me "Thanks mom for growing me up and letting me go." This was the time while I was reading my vision got blurred if you know what I mean. Tears ran down my cheek. I was happy and blessed and grateful to know they love me so much they acknowledge the time with me and remember it all.So I tell you again all the Mothers Have a Happy Mothers Day as mine started with great cards and Love! Thank you Mark for my card as well. I love you so much and I love the words that came from your heart. Your very welcome Its a pleasure to being your loving wife and a beautiful mother to our kids. Its an honor to be those wonderful things. Its the same how I feel about you! This Mothers Day started great because my dad was here to tell me as well Happy Mothers Day. Thanks to you too dad I love you as well. To all my family and friends Thanks back in response. Talk to you soon, have a Great Mothers Day!By Stormy AKA Ms.MexiQueen@>~~>~~~

Whats New lately

Well lately life has been good. My lil baby girl just turned 5 years old. I can't believe how time has past so fast on seeing my kids grow and showing their older personalities. Her theme on her birthday was Disney Princess and of course her favorite of all princess is Cinderella. Yesterday I saw her dress up in her Cinerella dress and she looked so adorable playing the role of Cinderella. She had her wond, the gloves, makeup which she got on her birthday, and her lil heels. I will always keep that moment of memory in my mind. I have since the begining of this year recieved I am here for the long haul of life. Thank God! I got my results on my mamagram and I am clear. Very Healthy which I am proud to say. So I am at my happiest peek in life since seeing my lil princess look so beautiful playing Cinderella. I look forward to more memorable moments in my life with my children. I also saw my oldest daughter playing makeup with my youngest daughter. They put on so much like if that was the only time they were allowed to put any on. So you can imagine how bright and dark the colors they added and added and added on. lol My son sitting next to me telling me a joke and it was one that as us grown ups don't get because its a childs joke, but as a mother you know you still laugh like if it was the funniest thing you ever heard. And seeing him look at me laughing at his joke made him very happy he was able to put a smile on my face. These are the moments I am glad I will continue to have with them and add more to my life.

New Years has started of with a hell of a BANG!

I have a lump on my right breast and have been recommended to have early mams and this is one of my first mams I took which I blogged it.

Yeah 12 days after January a bit late but still in the first month oh well who gives dang as long as its still some what up to date! Last day of the Year 2006 New Years Eve Ringing in the year to 2007 was a real big hit. Had so much fun at my uncle Bills Neon Moon Bar at Tivoli, Texas. First day of the year we woke up with a great meal three cow tongues us Mexicans call barbacova meat. Ate a few tacos made with flour tortillas, Pico de Gallo, avocado and of course the tongue it was delicious . Next January second came my appointment for what us women wish it would never have to happen. A Mammogram it really wasn't that bad of what I expected. Left with being told wait a week you will get notice for the results of your mammogram exam. Monday the next following week as you can recall my last blog I typed it all. Not in such a great mood at all I still continued for the next day to come. I woke up with so much energy to burn I ran 2 and a half miles and one I walked. Coming home to something I dread to have. I began to feel dizzy and some what the room spinning. I then had to rush to the restroom to throw up my lunch that same evening. By that time I began feeling my body coating with that very hot feeling. Temperature of a hundred I knew I just gotten the flu from someone or something contagious. Ew what an ugly nasty feeling coughing and sweating, coughing up flem. Not a good sight when you haven't gotten it yet. Above all this Wednesday finally came along. I walked to my mail box and what did I get? A letter I was soon to read. In a bubble just barely hanging on this stupid flu is getting on my nerves. I opened it and read on as it says your recent mammography examination showed a finding that requires additional imaging studies for a complete evaluation. A tear drops out of my eye as its burning because of the heat from my flu. I continue to read and it says in the next letter Most such findings are benign ( not cancer). Making me understand not to worry that in most cases that all it is, is just benign. So they scheduled me an appointment for a breast ultrasound. Plus it also says to reschedule another mammography as well with that. Reading the part of most such finding are benign, it makes me feel better, which in fact it did just that. I wiped that tear away from my cheek and held my head up high and continued with life....... Oh yeah and with this dang flu too. Hopefully soon it will leave my body completely along with what ever such finding is with in me. Don't feel sorry for me I don't need that at all. All I need is my family and friends united with me. My appointment is in March the 14th 2007 till then just pray for the best for me and my family. I will keep you posted on my results, so no worries I shall keep in touch. Thanks and Love you all family and friends! You are the best! Keep in Touch and support the women whom that need most of your prayers if you know what I mean. If not here let me tell you exactly what I mean. I show my support to the women with breast cancer. I eat my yogurt one a day sometimes I even eat yogurts 2 or 3 times a day. I wash my lids from my yogurt tops. At the end of every year I mail them off. To the women in need of every lid to help them find a cure for this killer disease. So please help us continue this cycle of saving your lids and mail them off too at the end of each year. This goes to men too I know you eat yogurts as well sometimes, during, or through out the year. And if you don't just do me a favor and pass my blog web address to the ones you know that do. You could be saving some ones mom, sister, grandma, and all women of all kind! When you wash your lids off you see an address you can send your lids to that address. Thanks, Take Care, God Bless you all Always. Happy New Years! By Stormy AKA Ms.MexiQueen @>~~>~~~

Me turning 30 Yikes!

I am adding some of my old blogs I have done in my past and it says alot about myself. From the begining that I started my first blogs to now. I usually blog at myspace.

Well here I am thinking dam time goes by so fast. Its like the song "Life in the fast lane". Its so freakin true which sux its like holding on to a rope and not wanting to let it go. But unfortunitly time still pushes you forward. I just hope life still remains the same and the saying is true thirty flirty and thriving. Well I'm not a flirt because Im happily married so can't say flirty but I am thriving for more in life. So Im hitting thirty and thrivingggggg. I love my life its just the age I have a problem with. Maybe because my twentys have been a roller coaster. AAWWWWWW Chucks think Im gonna cry NOT!
Here goes I was born in Camp Pendlton, California Im a marine brat cuz I was born in the marine base. My pops was in da Marines. Eventually moved to my home town Weslaco, Texas My single digit years were okay no worries, no bills, no probs, just all fun and games being a kid.
My Teen years I was some what the same the but then curiousity came in, learning from my mistakes, had lots of probems, parental probs with my old man and my ma, Got my first job at 16, I was rebelliouse, dropped out, 16 years old moved out moved in with my best friends fam, went out and had fun with my friends I was a normal teen, became a mother at the age of 19 years old, and meet my husband.
Then came my 20's I learned more was more independant more responsible same time had fun. In my twenties I got my drivers license, bought my own car, got our own place, after 5 yrs of being together married my husband, gained more family... my in laws, had our son, and our youngest daughter, became a step mom, meet my step children whom I Love a whole chunk, Meet alot of important peeps, went through hardships, went back to school, got my diploma, went to college and no not to borrow their bathroom lol actually sat through class and learned crap but I learned, Made ten years of being to my hubby this February 11, 06' and made 5 years being married with him February 14, 06' on Valentines Day! AND It Still feels like the first day I meet him! Flames are still rising and sparkling. The Love is still strong.
In between my life a whole lot more has happened but this is the high light of my life. I guess its almost time for a new chapter in my life being 30! I will learn to love that age as I learned alot through out my life already of who I am in my single digits, teen years, and my twenty somethings.
In this site and in my e-mails I'm known as Stormillenium this is the name that I chose because I have loved storm since the first time I saw her in X-Men. She is my super hero! I love her eyes when she makes the weather change. I love that she flys and the wind makes her hair move wicket, I love her white hair which when I turn 50 I hope my hair looks as white and shiny as hers for now shiny pitch black hair is good for me.
Well hope to have left a bit of what my life has been. Hope my life still keeps being as interesting and spontaneous as its been. Hope you all are also having a blast with your lives as well. Because you only live once so have fun, be safe, and enjoy it. Every birthday should be celebrated like if its your last only because you only turn that certain age once too. Thanks God for giving me life. Thanks to my family and friends for being a great big part of it. Now its time for me to handle my business and see what my plans are for my big 30th Birthday celebration!
You all are coordinately invited to my next 10 years of my life being thirty and hope you all can stay in it and for the more years of my life after that! Also hope to gain more friends along the way as well! Have a good one latas!
@>~~>~~~ Stormy AKA Ms.MexiQueen~~~
P.S. Please leave me comments RSVP on my invitation to my life after 29! WHHHHHHHOOOOOOW PaRtY TiMe!